Diary Part 7 - VALORIZE YOURSELF
These days, I've been learning alot. Today, I wanted to talk about us, women and girls around the world.But to begin, let me start from the beginning. When I was 11 years old, I started to discover facebook. I started to discover anime even more. When I had my 12 years, I had a depression, and with 13, I had a boyfriend. I shared my body pictures to my ex. Yes, I was only 13. And then when all these things happened, I started to show myself to other guys and even started to video cam with men. Yes, men of 20+ years. When I start having 16 years, I met God and Jesus. The ones who actually really transformed my life. Why? Because I decided to leave all these stuffs behind. I stopped sending nudes, I stopped all of these stupid stuffs and I started to valorize myself. I started to love myself. This is what happens when you sacrifice sins and don't go back to them just to serve God and Jesus.
Today, I was talking to my classmate. She really wanted to leave her religious culture to follow the TRUE God. So I adviced her alot. And she told me about a party called "Crazy Party" for 11 til 16 years old. This was her reaction
" When I was there, I totally felt bad. Since I wasn't liking that party, I stayed in a corner and it was unbelievable what I saw. I saw girls of 11 til 16 years rubbing her asses in guys, they were twerking and even came with a really short dress. THEY WERE ALL YOUNG"
When I heard that, I totally was chocked. Yes, When I was 11/15 years, I did many crap but still saved my dignity because it was always precious for me. But it shocked me and made me sad. So, when I was thinking, something in my mind was saying that I should go to that party to talk to these kids. KIDS.
Women and girls, will you accept to be an sexual object in the hands of someone else? Will you accept to be an object and then be rejected? Will you accept that?
I don't think so. You should valorize yourself. Why would many of you do that? Your parents wanted an example in their family. They wanted to be glad about you. They fed you, they gave you clothes, they give you money and this is how you pay your parents back? THINK ABOUT IT! Women, girls, you are damn special you know? You are precious! Why the hell you are doing this to yourself? Why are you destroying yourself? Look, stop that. It will destroy your life somehow. How many of you had sex with your first one and he left you? Many of you live that situation and can't even go trough! The reason why sex AFTER marriage is important. Doesn't matter if you made years of relationship. Imagine, you and your boyfriend, years of relationship without touching yourselves and after marriage, you share your dignity to a person that you are sure that he will be with you til die! Imagine it?
I'm only 17, I still have my dignity because I want to protect myself. I love myself because everyone calls me ugly. EVERYONE. But someone had to call me beautiful, so I started to love myself. You, everyone calls you beautiful, you that many men want you, how the hell can't you love yourself? I should be the one like, really damn depressed for everyone to call me ugly. That's why, love yourself. Because you don't want to be in my place. Believe me.
So women, valorize yourself. Save yourself for someone better. You lost your dignity? It's fine, you can stop doing it and wait for marriage. It always works.
Love yourselves! Never forget that!
Diary Part 6 - I know what to do now
So sorry
if I forgot to make my
diary yesterday. But to make a "resume" of my day yesterday, it was
actually really nice. I woke up and went to the forest at 11am. The forest is
totally beautiful, I mean, what God created is really beautiful! I went to the
forest to read a book called "Nothing to loose" ( Nada a perder) by
Edir Macedo. It's a beautiful book, you all need to read it. It really shows
how this Universal Church Kingdom of God fights, because even big churches
didn't accept them, many countries, people didn't accept them and end up being
violent. It's not Edir Macedo who rules this Church. The Saint Esprit
does.
At night, I was talking to my nephew about my crush. You
know, 15th July, I sang in the Graduation Party. My crush was going to get his
diploma. When I was singing, he started talking about me. (He told him that he
even followed me home just to know where I live lol ). All these three years
exchanging glances and he did actually like me. DAMN *^*
Today, I wasn't okay, I woke up and did my stuffs like
always. But I again involved with the gifts from this world, forgeting about
God. It was like, I lost. I totally lost, depression took over me..I didnt know
what to do. I really didn't know. So today, I went to participate in a reunion
at Universal Church, and they talked about the people that will be saved. The
ones that will be saved, will be infront of the court. And there, they'll
decide how far away from God you will live. They talked about saving souls for
Jesus. I actually even opened my eyes. But I know that I must fix myself first
and then save these souls that need it. People, do not follow religion. When I
say that I mean, don't follow it just because your family does. Follow God
instead! Because the ones who follow religion, follow it because their family
follow it. But don't be like that, follow him. Sacrifice the gifts from this
world, to be with him. I guarantee you that your life will be much better! :D
Diary Part 5 - What's happening?
I sometimes ask myself what is happening with me, what is happening with my faith. Long ago when I met God and Jesus, my faith was so strong, I was unstoppable. Today, I feel like my demons want to do everything to have me in their hands. I try everything, but I forget that I am in their territory, without Jesus, I can't do anything. How can I win my own demons with my own hands when they know how to swim? I feel like I'm slowly going down. But I know that I should not be down, I must act. So you passing trough something, do not give up because I won't!
Diary Part 4 - The Change, Part 2
After I took my pills and lay down on my bed, I heard a voice telling me to go down stairs. I heard that voice, in my head I was like "What the hell is wrong with me? Why?", so I went down stairs and fell. I was paralyzed, I couldn't move at all. My whole family was around me telling to get up..minutes after, they saw that something was wrong so they called the ambulance.
When all that happened, a friend of my cousin brought me to a church. That church was different from the others. It was small, it didnt had these beautiful decorations, it had nothing. The only big thing you could see is "Jesus Christ is the Lord". I was like "wtf am I doing here? Why are they bringing me here?", when the pastor came and the reunion started, everyone was praying. I was scared, I was totally scared. I was someone that didn't believe in a God. So I started crying and covered my ears. Someone who helps on the churches came for my help and started to make a prayer for me trying to expell someone inside of me. These times I didn't know why.
But then, I started to go on that church, I felt something different, I started to feel like Jesus was calling me. I learned about pratice my faith, I learned to move forward. I learned to sacrifice, because I had to sacrifice. I had to leave the sin if I wanted my life to change.
In only 7 months, I totally changed. I'm not that much aggressive now, I don't suffer so much from depression, I totally went trough everything thanks to God and Jesus.
Today, I realize that I can't do nothing without them. Even thou' I'm alone, I know that they are looking after me. Today I can even do stuffs that I never had the courage to do.
If you are someone who suffer that much and can't find solution, visit an Universal Church Kingdom of God. You'll see that we aren't "religious. We just want to serve our God. The one who can help us.
I hope you reflect a little bit in your life, maybe you didn't go trough the same things as me, maybe you pass trough worst, but know that I love and that I truly want to see your life change. I know you can do it, I know you can love yourself. No one ever loved me that much, everyone called me fat and ugly, but if no one calls me beautiful, I'll be the one calling myself beautiful. I have self confidence, and you should have it too no mather what. If a teen like me that is called ugly by everyone can love herself, you can do it too. No matter what.
Have a nice day!!
Here the Universal Church's link (Try to find one in your country if you want help) : http://www.universal.org/
Diary Part 4 - My past, Part 1
Hello everyone, like always, my name is Sonia Isabel but I named myself CupcakeVe because I'll be making videos very soon.Well, let me start from the beginning, 3 years ago, I was suffering from depression, illness and e.t.c.
I really had to many issues in my life: Everyone called me ugly and fat, the fact that I never had a boyfriend always made me sad. I ended up entering in a situation that it was impossible to resolve, my depression, I had family issues. Let's say I had a big issue in my social life.
Let's start from everyone calling me fat and ugly. You know, I never had the pretty face that everyone loves, and never was that cute little baby that everyone loves. I never had that skinny body either, I was the fat kid, the ugly one. Til today, no guy ever said that I was beautiful. Sometimes guys love to make fun of my face when I'm in the public places, all I can do is to look at them. Because of that I never had a boyfriend, I mean I did, we broke up two weeks ago...He broke up with me because he couldn't accept my past, a past that doesn't define me today. A past that I totally forgot about and learned to look forward. He broke up too because I didn't accept to have sexual activities with him. In the beginning, he accepted that I didn't wanted to do that before my marriage. He knew that my dignity is everything for me...he knew that I just wanted to give it when I married. But he didn't wanted to continue since I wouldn't give him what he wanted. It was a difficult past. When I was a kid, I used to "roleplay date" in the internet alot when I met someone that called me beautiful for the first time. He meant so much for me. I met a "roleplay mother" too. My "mother" had a girlfriend, yes, she was a lesbian but I accepted that, it didn't matter. Some time later, my "mother" tells me that boyfriend died in a car accident trying to come here. I felt horrible that day, I went insane, like always nobody knew what I was going trough, I suffered in silence. Some days later, my roleplay mother disappears. Her girlfriend was really down, she was worried about her. After all the drama, her girlfriend finds out what happened...My "mother" never existed, my boyfriend didn't die. He was married and had a child, he was the one who made my roleplay mother's account, the one who always talked who always talked to me. Her girlfriend was really...I don't know how to describe..you know, imagine you loving someone so much and find out that the person you really love, doesn't exist. It's really hard to go trough that..But a hate inside of me was born, I totally hated him to the point to kill him, but I couldn't do anythin...So I went to my room, in my bed and suffered in silence. Later on, at school, things weren't going well, I was suffering from a big depression. I thought there was no solution for me, so last year in summer, I tried suicide..I took many pills and lay down on my bed,..
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